It's me...and I have alot to say :)

Holy Crap is right! I have completely neglected this task - which really is such a great outlet for me....so it is such a delight to get back here and just write. I have so much to be thankful for at this point in my life. I am surrounded by so many wonderful people that add so much to my life and that of my children. I pray for these people - pray that life is good to them...pray that they want for nothing and have love and happiness in their hearts.

1. My mom - who, although can drive me crazy, and not just "drive" but HOV lane on the freeway kind of crazy, has been there through it all. She is my travel agent for guilt trips. Although she doesn't always say things with the utmost tact, she means well.

2. Emmeline - who (see HOV comment above) drives me to drink, but is my foundation somedays. I pray that life will turn out well for her. With all her shananigans, I am still reminded that she needs me...sometimes more than she realizes and more than her 2 year old sibling needs me (even though she will never admit that). Her heart is so big and she has enough love for a universe, but she lacks the trust that she needs to see in herself. I pray for that for her.

3. Ethan - who is my shining star - my ray of light. For so many years, the thought of having a son eluded me. He is a sweet spirit with a playful personality and every time I look at him, I see the wonderful future he has ahead of him. His smile, those eyes - brings joy to my heart.

4. Pam and Cindy - you are...how to do I cover it?? Thank you for being the Nene and Nana that you guys are...for Ethan and Em. Thank you for checking on us and making sure that I get the breaks that I need sometimes. Pam - thanks for always listening to me cry and gripe about your son...when really you should not, but you do... and offering me the advice that I need to hear.

5. Jeanette - dude?? Where do I start? In highschool we were friends and this recent connection again - it reassures me that there are true friends out there. Thanks!

6. Jennifer - through the ups and downs...through the tears and the laughter - you are the sister that I never had. Thank you my dear friend.

7. BDS - this could take forever...in such a short time. Simply thank you for making me smile, laugh, cry and most of THINK... about who I am, who I can be, what I have to offer and how special I am. You always encourage me onto the next level of success. You are truly that life long friend that I know will always be a part of my life in one form or another... you are a wonderul person (and silent investor) that has made this time in my life less confusing, less stressful, more fun and more fulfilling. I will never be able to repay your kindness.

8. My girlfriends - the ones I see often and the ones that I do not - their text messages or FB comments, their quick emails, their short phone calls... I am thankful for you all...Lisa, Felicia, Rhonda, Stacey, Fran, Heather, Tara, Michelle

9. Jason & Tara - we have been friends since college and when I call, you both have the most wonderful advice...clear and concise. Thank you for always being honest with me and giving me the pros and cons when I need to hear them, even though I may not want to. I am so happy that you both have wonderful people in your lives to share your love with... you deserve all the happiness that life has to offer.

10. Clarissa - thank you for the opportunity with Pure Romance. I have come to realize that I can do this and I will succeed. You are a great example and wonderful team leader!!

So, I will have to get back here before too long...with the holidays kicking in it is going to be more difficult, but I have to make time...and will. Love and happiness to everyone...hugs!!